Some of you know my story; others just in passing or not at all…

I’ve spent the last few years working in adult entertainment, mostly with my ex wife of almost seven years. We were married young; for forgivable but obviously flawed reasons. Now that we’ve gone our separate way’s, I’m trying to figure out how long I want to continue down the path that I’ve been on and when to take the fork in the road. I don’t regret my time in adult entertainment, I just sort of feel that I’m ready to try other things, have a different sort of adventure.

I’ve got other endeavors that while perhaps less lucrative in the short term are more fulfilling to me. I’ve been writing a memoir about my career, my life, the way that the two affect one another. I’ve gotten back to photography for the sake of capturing moments and less because I need a certain number of pictures to publish commercially in a set.

I read once that Anais Nin wrote some of her most famous work as an answer to the rigid confines of writing specifically for the tastes of her benefactor. She railed against his requests for more of this, or less of that, and the outcome became Little Birds and Delta of Venus. That’s how I feel about taking pictures at the moment; that my best work doesn’t belong to any set of fifty published to meet the quota for an adult website. It’s in the single image that I take, regardless of benefit, just because I’m inspired to do so.

That’s the thing about starting over; even if you don’t have to change everything, you often want to. It’s sometimes easier and more inspiring to just pitch it all and reinvent, rather that make your situation work in different circumstances. I sort of feel like when you make sudden, radical changes that you are denouncing the adventure you’ve been on and I’ve enjoyed mine too much to ever let anyone believe otherwise.