you are my sunshine

I was singing to you, in my dream, as you packed the things of mine you'd found in the boxes that had arrived at your new place. I knew that it was over; this was the last commitment to you and I never being together again, and I was a little sad and yet happy for you.

I sang:

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'd started singing it thinking that it was a happy song; one that would cheer you up, but as I sang the words, they took on their true meaning for me and it made me blue.


When I'm awake, I can reason with myself, tell myself all the reasons why it didn't work and every one of them makes perfect sense. When I sleep though, my waking mind isn't there to intervene on my behalf and I'm prone to fits of missing her terribly.