I saw her again, finally, after not having run into her for some time. She was with someone else and so was I, but I waved to her from across the room and she smiled at me weakly when she left. I ran into her again the next day and she seemed reluctant to make eye contact, letting her roommate do all the talking initially, but eventually she gained confidence and spoke to me with enthusiasm (if only for a moment). It seems strange to me that we should be so awkward around one another; I've not figured out what that means just yet.
I spent the evening out last night with friends and it was nice to get things accomplished as well as have a little fun. I like to step out of my own head, get out of the house, particularly since I work alone from home.
The day was long and turned out to be challenging but I'm learning after a certain point to let go, move on, not let people or things bother me so much that they change my day, my outlook, my perspective. When I lay my head down at night I have to be able to shut it all off and while I haven't perfected this just yet, I'm getting better at it.
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