We had our week of not talking and then last night she called. She told me in the morning it would be at a certain time and then of course it's hours after when she said and the conversation has to be cut short because it's late.
She starts the conversation with whimsical musings about how she thinks of me all the time, wants to see me but she's scared. She wants it to be perfect, which nothing ever is and I tell her that waiting for it to be means we shouldn't count on seeing each other ever again.
"So are you dating anyone" she asks, which is why she really called. She is afraid I am. She tells me that she wants to show me that she can be nice to me, that she's making an effort to be nicer to people all in the same breath as "are you seeing anyone". She also makes it a point of wording her response to the same question elusive enough to try and inspire jealousy.
From the moment I tell her I'm not really dating anyone, everything goes downhill. She has to let me go because it's late and her phone is dying, but she stops to take another call in the middle of it from a friend.
Most of the questions about how I'm doing are so I'll ask the same. Most of her curiosity about my life is in wanting to know how it is without her. Most of my words of encouragement or affection are met with no response or two character text messages that smile at me with as much effort as I ever should expect.
I have this t-shirt. It never fit very well. But I put it on for almost a year after I left her store.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure entirely what you mean by this (and am curious as to who you are)?
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